Life After Death: There is no Self
Introduction
“…There is rebirth of character, but no
transmigration of a self. Thy thought-forms reappear, but there is
no ego-entity transferred. The stanza uttered by a teacher is
reborn in the scholar who repeats the words.
Only through ignorance and delusion do men indulge in the dream that
their souls are separate and self-existent entities. Thy heart,
O Brahman, is cleaving still to self; thou art anxious
about heaven but thou seekest the pleasures of self in
heaven, and thus thou canst not see the bliss of truth and
the immortality of truth.”
While some believe it’s impossible to know whether there is life
after death, belief in immortality is timeless. People of all
times and places in history have believed that the human
soul survives death. If there is no consciousness beyond the
grave, then life has fooled almost everyone from the
Pharaohs of Egypt to Jesus of Nazareth.
When we talk about rebirth or reincarnation, some people laugh at
the idea. They consider such belief is passe and obsolete.
Others may think such question is in arena of religion.
After all, it concerns what is after death.
THERE was an officer among the retinue of Simha who had heard of
the discourses of the Blessed One, and there was some doubt left
in his heart. This man came to the Blessed One and said:
“It is said, O Lord, that the samana Gotama denies the
existence of the soul. Do they who say so speak the truth,
or do they bear false witness against the Blessed One
And the Blessed One said: “There is a way in which those who
say so are speaking truly of me; on the other hand, there is a way
in which those who say so do not speak truly of me.
The
Tathagata teaches that there is no self. He who says that
the soul is his self and that the self is the thinker of our
thoughts and the actor of our deeds, teaches a wrong
doctrine which leads to confusion and darkness. On the other
hand, the Tathagata teaches that there is mind. He who
understands by soul mind, and says that mind exists, teaches
the truth which leads to clearness and enlightenment.”
The officer said: “Does, then, the Tathagata maintain that
two things exist? that which we perceive with our senses and that
which is mental?”
Said the Blessed One: “I say to thee, thy mind is spiritual,
but neither is the sense-perceived void of spirituality. The bodhi
is eternal and it dominates all existence as the good law
guiding all beings in their search for truth. It changes
brute nature into mind, and there is no being that cannot be
transformed into a vessel of truth.”
Identity and Non-Identity
KUTADANTA, the head of the Brahmans in the village of Danamati,
having approached the Blessed One respectfully, greeted him and
said: “I am told, O samana, that thou art the Buddha, the
Holy One, the All-knowing, the Lord of the world. But if
thou wert the Buddha, wouldst thou not come like a king in
all thy glory and power?” Said the Blessed One: “Thine eyes
are holden. If the eye of thy mind were undimmed thou
couldst see the glory and the power of truth.”
Said Kutadanta: “Show me the truth and I shall see it. But
thy doctrine is without consistency. If it were consistent, it would
stand; but as it is not, it will pass away.” The Blessed One
replied: “The truth will never pass away.”
Kutadanta said: “I am told that thou teachest the law, yet
thou tearest down religion. Thy disciples despise rites and abandon
immolation, but reverence for the gods can be shown only by
sacrifices. The very nature of religion consists in worship
and sacrifice.” Said the Buddha: “Greater than the
immolation of bullocks is the sacrifice of self. He who
offers to the gods his evil desires will see the uselessness
of slaughtering animals at the altar. Blood has no
cleansing power, but the eradication of lust will make the
heart pure. Better than worshiping gods is obedience to the
laws of righteousness.”
Kutadanta, being of a religious disposition and anxious about his
fate after death, had sacrificed countless victims. Now he saw
the folly of atonement by blood. Not yet satisfied, however,
with the teachings of the Tathagata, Kutadanta continued:
“Thou believest, O Master, that beings are reborn; that they
migrate in the evolution of life; and that subject to the
law of karma we must reap what we sow. Yet thou teachest the
non-existence of the soul! Thy disciples praise utter
self-extinction as the highest bliss of Nirvana. If I am
merely a combination of the sankharas, my existence will
cease when I die. If I am merely a compound of sensations and
ideas and desires, whither can I go at the dissolution of the
body?”
Said the Blessed One: “O Brahman, thou art religious and
earnest. Thou art seriously concerned about thy soul. Yet is thy
work in vain because thou art lacking in the one thing that is
needful. There is rebirth of character, but no transmigration of
a self. Thy thought-forms reappear, but there is no
ego-entity transferred. The stanza uttered by a teacher is
reborn in the scholar who repeats the words.
“Only through ignorance and delusion do men indulge in the
dream that their souls are separate and self-existent entities. Thy
heart, O Brahman, is cleaving still to self; thou art anxious
about heaven but thou seekest the pleasures of self in
heaven, and thus thou canst not see the bliss of truth and
the immortality of truth.
“I say to thee: The Blessed One has not come to teach death,
but to teach life, and thou discernest not the nature of living and
dying. This body will be dissolved and no amount of
sacrifice will save it. Therefore, seek thou the life that
is of the mind. Where self is, truth cannot be; yet when
truth comes, self will disappear. Therefore, let thy mind
rest in the truth; propagate the truth, put thy whole will
in it, and let it spread. In the truth thou shalt live
forever. Self is death and truth is life. The cleaving to self
is a perpetual dying, while moving in the truth is partaking of
Nirvana which is life everlasting.”
Then Kutadanta said: “Where, O venerable Master, is
Nirvana?” “Nirvana is wherever the precepts are obeyed
replied the Blessed One.
“Do I understand thee aright,” rejoined the Brahman,
“That Nirvana is not a place, and being nowhere it is without
reality?” “Thou dost not understand me aright,” said the
Blessed One, “Now listen and answer these questions: Where
does the wind dwell
“Nowhere,” was the reply.
Buddha retorted: “Then, sir, there is no such thing as
wind.” Kutadanta made no reply; and the Blessed One asked
again: “Answer me, O Brahman, where does wisdom dwell? Is
wisdom a locality?”
“Wisdom has no allotted dwelling-place replied Kutadanta.
Said the Blessed One: “Meanest thou that there is no wisdom, no
enlightenment, no righteousness, and no salvation, because Nirvana
is not a locality? As a great and mighty wind which passeth
over the world in the heat of the day, so the Tathagata
comes to blow over the minds of mankind with the breath of
his love, so cool, so sweet, so calm, so delicate; and those
tormented by fever assuage their suffering and rejoice at
the refreshing breeze.”
Said Kutadanta: “I feel, O Lord, that thou proclaimest a
great doctrine, but I cannot grasp it. Forbear with me that I ask
again: Tell me, O Lord, if there be no atman [soul], how can there
be immortality? The activity of the mind passeth, and our
thoughts are gone when we have done thinking.”
Buddha replied: “Our thinking is gone, but our thoughts
continue. Reasoning ceases, but knowledge remains.” Said
Kutadanta: “How is that? Are not reasoning and knowledge the
same?”
The Blessed One explained the distinction by an illustration:
“It is as when a man wants, during the night, to send a letter,
and, after having his clerk called, has a lamp lit, and gets
the letter written. Then, when that has been done, he
extinguishes the lamp. But though the writing has been
finished and the light has been put out the letter is still
there. Thus does reasoning cease and knowledge remain; and
in the same way mental activity ceases, but experience,
wisdom, and all the fruits of our acts endure.”
Kutadanta continued: “Tell me, O Lord, pray tell me, where,
if the sankharas are dissolved, is the identity of my self. If my
thoughts are propagated, and if my soul migrates, my thoughts
cease to be my thoughts and my soul ceases to be my soul.
Give me an illustration, but pray, O Lord, tell me, where is
the identity of my self?”
Said the Blessed One: “Suppose a man were to light a lamp;
would it burn the night through?” “Yes, it might do so,”
was the reply.
“Now, is it the same flame that burns in the first watch of
the night as in the second?” Kutadanta hesitated. He thought it
is the same flame, but fearing the complications of a hidden
meaning, and trying to be exact, he said: “No, it is not.”
“Then,” continued the Blessed One, “there are two flames,
one in the first watch and the other in the second watch.”
“No, sir,” said Kutadanta. “In one sense it is not the same
flame, but in another sense it is the same flame. It burns
the same kind of oil, it emits the same kind of light, and
it serves the same purpose.”
“Very well said the Buddha and would you call those flames
the same that have burned yesterday and are burning now in the same
lamp, filled with the same kind of oil, illuminating the same
room?” “They may have been extinguished during the
day,” suggested Kutadanta.
Said the Blessed One: “Suppose the flame of the first watch
had been extinguished during the second watch, would you call it the
same if it burns again in the third watch?” Replied
Kutadanta: “In one sense it is a different flame, in another
it is not.”
The Tathagata asked again: “Has the time that elapsed during
the extinction of the flame anything to do with its identity or
non-identity?” “No, sir,” said the Brahman, “it has
not. There is a difference and an identity, whether many years
elapsed or only one second, and also whether the lamp has been
extinguished in the meantime or not.”
“Well, then, we agree that the flame of today is in a
certain sense the same as the flame of yesterday, and in another
sense it is different at every moment. Moreover, the flames of the
same kind, illuminating with equal power the same kind of
rooms, are in a certain sense the same.” “Yes, sir,” replied
Kutadanta.
The Blessed One continued: “Now, suppose there is a man who
feels like thyself, thinks like thyself, and acts like thyself, is
he not the same man as thou?” “No, sir,” interrupted
Kutadanta.
Said the Buddha: “Dost thou deny that the same logic holds
good for thyself that holds good for the things of the world?”
Kutadanta bethought himself and rejoined slowly: “No, I do not.
The same logic holds good universally; but there is a
peculiarity about my self which renders it altogether
different from everything else and also from other selves.
There may be another man who feels exactly like me, thinks
like me, and acts like me; suppose even he had the same name
and the same kind of possessions, he would not be myself.”
“True, Kutadanta, answered Buddha, he would not be thyself.
Now, tell me, is the person who goes to school one, and that same
person when he has finished his schooling another? Is it one
who commits a crime, another who is punished by having his
hands and feet cut off?” “They are the same, was the reply.
“Then sameness is constituted by continuity only?” asked
the Tathagata. “Not only by continuity,” said Kutadanta, but
also and mainly by identity of character.”
“Very well, concluded the Buddha, then thou agreest that
persons can be the same, in the same sense as two flames of the same
kind are called the same; and thou must recognize that in this
sense another man of the same character and product of the
same karma is the same as thou.” “Well, I do,” said the
Brahman.
The Buddha continued: “And in this same sense alone art thou
the same today as yesterday. Thy nature is not constituted by the
matter of which thy body consists, but by thy sankharas, the
forms of the body, of sensations, of thoughts. The person is
the combination of the sankharas. Wherever they are, thou
art. Whithersoever they go, thou goest. Thus thou wilt
recognize in a certain sense an identity of thy self, and in
another sense a difference. But he who does not recognize
the identity should deny all identity, and should say that
the questioner is no longer the same person as he who a
minute after receives the answer. Now consider the
continuation of thy personality, which is preserved in thy
karma. Dost thou call it death and annihilation, or life and
continued life?”
“I call it life and continued life,” rejoined Kutadanta,
“for it is the continuation of my existence, but I do not care
for that kind of continuation. All I care for is the continuation of
self in the other sense, which makes of every man, whether
identical with me or not, an altogether different person.”
“Very well,” said Buddha. “This is what thou desirest and
this is the cleaving to self. This is thy error. All
compound things are transitory: they grow and they decay. All
compound things are subject to pain: they will be separated from
what they love and be joined to what they abhor. All compound
things lack a self, an atman, an ego.”
“How is that?” asked Kutadanta. “Where is thy self? asked
the Buddha. And when Kutadanta made no reply, he continued:
“Thy self to which thou cleavest is a constant change.
Years ago thou wast a small babe; then, thou wast a boy;
then a youth, and now, thou art a man. Is there any identity of the
babe and the man? There is an identity in a certain sense only.
Indeed there is more identity between the flames of the
first and the third watch, even though the lamp might have
been extinguished during the second watch. Now which is thy
true self, that of yesterday, that of today, or that of
tomorrow, for the preservation of which thou clamorest?”
Kutadanta was bewildered. “Lord of the world,” he said, I
see my error, but I am still confused.”
The Tathagata continued: “It is by a process of evolution
that sankharas come to be. There is no sankhara which has sprung
into being without a gradual becoming. Thy sankharas are the
product of thy deeds in former existences. The combination
of thy sankharas is thy self. Wheresoever they are impressed
thither thy self migrates. In thy sankharas thou wilt
continue to live and thou wilt reap in future existences the
harvest sown now and in the past.”
“Verily, O Lord,” rejoined Kutadanta, this is not a fair
retribution. I cannot recognize the justice that others after
me will reap what I am sowing now.”
The Blessed One waited a moment and then replied: “Is all
teaching in vain? Dost thou not understand that those others are
thou thyself Thou thyself wilt reap what thou sowest, not others.
Think of a man who is ill-bred and destitute, suffering from
the wretchedness of his condition. As a boy he was slothful
and indolent, and when he grew up he had not learned a
craft to earn a living. Wouldst thou say his misery is not
the product of his own action, because the adult is no
longer the same person as was the boy?
“I say to thee: Not in the heavens, not in the midst of the
sea, not if thou hidest thyself away in the clefts of the mountains,
wilt thou find a place where thou canst escape the fruit of
thine evil actions. At the same time thou art sure to
receive the blessings of thy good actions. To the man who
has long been traveling and who returns home in safety, the
welcome of kinfolk, friends, and acquaintances awaits. So,
the fruits of his good works bid him welcome who has walked
in the path of righteousness, when he passes over from the
present life into the hereafter.”
Kutadanta said: “I have faith in the glory and excellency of
thy doctrines. My eye cannot as yet endure the light; but I now
understand that there is no self, and the truth dawns upon me.
Sacrifices cannot save, and invocations are idle talk. But
how shall I find the path to life everlasting? I know all
the Vedas by heart and have not found the truth.”
Said the Buddha: “Learning is a good thing; but it availeth
not. True wisdom can be acquired by practice only. Practice the
truth that thy brother is the same as thou. Walk in the noble
path of righteousness and thou wilt understand that while
there is death in self, there is immortality in truth.”
Said Kutadanta: “Let me take my refuge in the Blessed One,
in the Dharma, and in the brotherhood. Accept me as thy disciple and
let me partake of the bliss of immortality.”
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By Robert Bruce
Copyright © 1994-1999 by Robert Bruce
Reprinted with permission
Reincarnation is in my opinion an overly simplified concept,
designed to be easily understood and accepted by the general
population. But the theory of reincarnation falls down sharply when
closely examined. That is, if you understand how standard
linear time sense behaves in higher dimensional levels,
i.e., time sense fluctuates.
As far as it goes, the theory of reincarnation is clear enough to
explain some very complex esoteric matters in a simple way;
without giving people headaches whenever they think about
it. It also allows for the illusion of the continuation of
present consciousness, unchanged and progressive, with only
an occasional memory loss to mar its course; marking the
division between each Re–Incarnation. This makes it easy for
people to accept the bones of the incarnation process.
It gives them the benefit of a rational afterlife belief-system
containing the simplified essence of the whole truth. This allows a
measure of independence and security, and a reassurance of
the continuance of self, i.e., life after death and
reincarnation = a kind of immortality theory that people can
easily accept and relate to.
But the whole truth of reincarnation is so extraordinarily complex it is not so easily grasped.
At the top of the dimensional structure is ONE consciousness. A
SINGLE mind (call it universal consciousness, The Great White
Spirit, the mind of God: pick one?). Or split it into three if
you like: Father, Son & Holy Spirit, or many more if you
prefer the demigod perspective, i.e., Hindu beliefs, etc.
However you conceive this structure, at the top of it all
rests a single consciousness: the original spark of
consciousness that created and is continually creating the
entire multi-dimensional universe we call home. But grasping
and relating to the ONE is not an easy thing to do. The ONE
is so far above our understanding of what consciousness is, it
becomes incomprehensible to the human mind: except of course in the
abstract; which is the only realistic way this can be
perceived and related to. The most popular way of relating
to the ONE is through abstract simile, i.e., God is like the
father of all fathers, or, God is like the mother of all
mothers, et cetera.
Beneath the ONE are layers of consciousness (relating to subtle
dimensional levels, i.e., the astral dimension, mental dimension,
etc) where the ONE fragments and splits into multiple
parts, with each lower layer splitting again and again into
many more layers and parts, and so on, until you get to the
physical dimension, the dimension of Maya, the dimension of
solid illusion where we as energy-cum-physical beings can
experience the limitations of the physical universe through
our physical bodies. This, in a way, makes us human beings
the myriad eyes, ears and consciousness’ (in the physical
dimension) of the ONE great universal mind above us.
At the very top of the dimensional spectrum, at dimension ONE,
there is NO time. Mystically, this is understood and experienced
as The Eternal NOW. This means there is NO TIME. There, time
does not exist and everything, the past, present and
future, are happening all at once in the eternal NOW. Every
layer beneath this takes on a little more time sense
(steadily increasing in time sense) until we get back down
to the physical dimension; to our Real-Time dimension of
solid illusion (our normal physical universe) where time becomes
relatively linear once again.
To support this: whenever you experience higher dimensions, say
during OBE, you will always notice a significant variability in
time; in your sense of time passing during each experience.
Modern physicists are already working mathematically in
several different dimensions above but related (or linked)
to the physical universe. The great physicist Einstein
stated that at some point in the dimensional spectrum there
must be a point where time does not exist, where past,
present and future coexist simultaneously.
I have traveled to and experienced higher dimensional levels
where there is NO concept of time at all. But the sensation and
perception of time passing is also quite variable in the
physical universe, and time sense is entirely relative to
your state of mind. Look at how time flies when you are
happy, say when you are spending time with someone you love.
But oh how it drags and drags like a heavy stone while you
are bored, or while you are waiting or experiencing
something you dislike.
In a way this can be likened to a simple pyramid structure:

The above diagram shows the ascending and descending layers of
the ONE consciousness, splitting into more and more parts as it
descends into the real time universe (the here and now). Each
part of the layers directly above the physical dimension can
be more easily related to, if you consider each as being an
Overself or Oversoul, or Higher Self (pick one?). In our
dimension, each of these split into many separate parts
(hundreds or even thousands of people; how many is unknown).
And if you take into account this flow of multiple
consciousness units from above, from the eternal NOW, it is
also likely this spreads throughout all of time and space:
possibly with each Oversoul splitting into countless people; all who
have ever lived in the past, all those living in the present,
and all those that will live in the future. The bottom line
is that these are all living simultaneously in the shadow of
The Eternal NOW. And if you also take into account the
countless worlds in our universe that probably contain many
other race, not to mention a plethora of parallel universes,
the mind simply boggles. And yes, I think I am definitely
getting a headache at this point!
If you look closely at and ponder the mind-split effect (see
Astral Dynamics, or The Treatise on OBE parts 7 & 8) you’ll see
before you the underlying principle of incarnation at work.
As above so below. And if you apply the mind-split effect to
incarnation, you’ll see the ONE great mind splitting and
reflecting (or incarnating) into many billions of parts,
into many billions of people.
Now, if you take the above as read, you will see that the linear
concept of reincarnation is just a little off the mark in
explaining the higher nature of reality. It leaves too many
questions unanswered and has too many holes in it’s logic.
Its way too simplistic an explanation to fit the enormity
underlying the reality of incarnation.
In my opinion, what is really happening is this:
We are all essentially a part of the ONE at the very highest
level of consciousness. There is NO time at the top (or you could
say there is ALL time at the top) so everything happens in the
eternal NOW. Therefore, logically, a single person would
incarnate throughout time: past present and future, living
and experiencing multiple lives. But these are lived all at
the same time, all at once, all in the eternal NOW. And
therefore, if all lives are lived at once, then it is also
likely each ‘person’ incarnates many times in the same
timeframe, i.e., that you are incarnated many times in the
present, and are living many different lives simultaneously in
this present time, in the present NOW. This also applies to the
past, present and future; meaning you are now currently living
throughout all time. Scary concept maybe, and definitely
headache material, but its also extremely logical.
I believe the above, with a healthy application of
like-attracts-like and opposites-repel, also accounts for what are
commonly called Soul Mates. Individual incarnating spirits would
logically attract like-minded spirits to them from among
their own spectrum of incarnating brethren, i.e., from among
those incarnating from their own shared Oversoul.
The Buddhist concept of the Overself is fairly accurate in
describing what is happening at a higher level of consciousness.
This is a step up from the simpler concept of linear incarnation,
living life after life, as taken for granted by most NewAge
people today. Although the Buddhist theory also includes
linear reincarnation, you will find there are many gray
areas between fact, theory and experience.
Past life memories…or past life associations?
In my opinion these may be caused by closely related links (call
it a soul family clan) between some spirits contained within a
single Oversoul unit. These links are not limited nor divided
by our primitive concept of linear time, but are all
connected through the higher soul clan in the eternal NOW.
They are all existing simultaneously at the higher level
where they connect. Therefore, when a person remembers or
feels connected with, or affected by, dramatic events from
what is considered a past life filtering through into their
present reality; these events are actually happening right
now, in the eternal NOW. This may account for why these
links can be so keenly felt. Even though the actual events
that are affecting or being felt as stemming from a past life that
may have happened thousands of years ago, it is actually
happening right now, in the eternal NOW. And this goes a
long way toward explaining why past life memories can have
such a profound effect on us.
I think past life experiences can also be felt and experienced
(shared) in varying degrees, by all the individual members of a
closely related soul clan. They are not remembering events
that happened a very long ago, they are being ‘felt’ and
experienced by all parts as if they were actually a part of
that other time, as if these events were happening NOW.
The above hopefully sheds some new light on the ancient but
little-realized belief that we are all brothers and sisters in
spirit, all God’s children; regardless of sex or race; or even of
species for that matter. Ultimately we are all ONE at the
highest level, all ONE in the eternal NOW. (RB)
Copyright © 1994-1999 by Robert Bruce
Reprinted with permission
The Catch Basket Concept
By Robert Bruce
A New Approach to Life and The Greater Spiritual Reality
Copyright © 2000 by Robert Bruce
I found the following article, yet again, while searching through
my computer files. I had completely forgotten writing it. It
seems a shame to waste it, so here it is. It explains a
little about who I am and where I am coming from, and why I
write the books and articles I do. My life; it’s been a
learning process in every sense of The Word.
In the mid-to-late nineteen-eighties, I experienced a serious
belief system challenge. Glaring contradictions arose at every
turn, between my ongoing hard-life experiences and popularly
accepted New Age concepts of spiritual reality. I struggled
to comprehend and integrate my experience with this
paradigm, being forced time and time again to accept
illogical compromises. But adaptation of my life experience
soon became impossible and I began suffocating under its
awkward burden. The popular model rapidly became unworkable in a
practical sense. Either I was going crazy and experiencing
consistent, repeatable delusions, as were all the people I was
helping, or something was decidedly rotten in downtown Denmark.
Like many people down through the ages, I had spent my life
searching for spiritual truth and meaning to life. For many years, I
had sat in development groups, prayed, meditated, visualized
and read until my eyes burned and my mind reeled under the
massive contradictory onslaught. I developed psychic
abilities, had spectacular OBE’s, visions and mystical
experiences. I made good progress, but still I need more. . .
I was eventually reborn and transformed when I raised my
kundalini to its highest level around 1987 (this was when the enigma
of my life became apparent to me). But raising kundalini, in
itself, does not bring instant enlightenment. Kundalini has
to be raised regularly and mastered, just like any other
ability. The first time kundalini is raised it causes
‘abstract’ enlightenment, not actual enlightenment. You know
everything while kundalini is raised, but cannot realize
this when you return to a normal level of consciousness (the
base level of consciousness in the normal waking state).
There are no shortcuts, and there is no way of avoiding all
the hard work and hard-life experience necessary for the abstracts
to filter down into your conscious mind and physical reality.
All of this gleaned me glimpses of the greater spiritual reality
above, with a few tantalizingly abstract snippets of abstract
higher truth thrown in for good measure. But my increasingly
strong contact with the greater spiritual reality provided
me with a flood of contradictions to the popularly accepted
model. This intellectual burden grew and grew as my belief
system was stretched way beyond its design limits. It
rapidly approached critical mass.
I was offered a solution in 1990. I had a major experience where
an angel, or my higher-self (hard to tell which, and somewhat of
a moot point really) manifested to me as a powerful
objective voice. I could have recorded this had I a tape
recorder handy; it was that audible. I was wide-awake and
standing up. I had just stepped out of the shower and was
about to start my evening meditation, around 9 pm. It was
the most beautiful voice I have ever heard: deep, masculine,
eloquent, loving, forgiving and wise. The atmosphere was
intense. I felt like a small child might feel when standing before
God in a great cathedral for the very first time. The sense of
awe and loving fatherly forgiveness is overpowering. As I
write, just revisiting my living memory of this causes tears
of deep spiritual longing to flood down my face; such is
the emotional impact of this experience.
NB: This was the same objective voice that had spoken to me a
couple of years earlier, when it then instructed me to begin
teaching myself how to write. Since I barely finished grade eight,
this was no mean feat in itself. I had worked hard, and by
the time of the second visitation, had already mastered the
basics of English and grammar. Even so, I still felt I had
not done enough. But direct contact with spiritual beings
from the greater reality always has this effect, especially
when they come to you.
The voice asked me to sit down, and then proceed to explain a
great many things to me, the most important of which was advice on
how to proceed on my quest for higher spiritual truth and
knowledge. I was instructed to dismantle my belief system,
and then to intelligently rebuild it from scratch. I was
told to be disciplined in my approach and to use personal
experience, logic and commonsense to build a new foundation
belief system, upon which to continue my quest for true
enlightenment.
The foundation belief system lies deep within the subconscious
mind. This comprises a set of conceptual mental filters and
shields, which are fundamental to one’s physical and
spiritual existence. These shape and affect your thoughts
and perceptions by filtering ideas and inspirations, making
these conform to a central theme, as set by your foundation
beliefs. All knowledge lies within your heart. But accessing
this is extraordinarily difficult. Everything has to pass
through your conceptual filters before it can be perceived
or realized.
If one’s fundamental beliefs are even slightly flawed,
information trying to pass through becomes distorted or blocked.
Imagine new truths as being delicate square crystals, and flawed
conceptual filters (contradictory beliefs) as being coarse
round holes. New truths are effectively blocked. If one
forces them through, the results are splintered octagonals,
i.e., fractured, distorted or incomplete truths.
Therefore, if a higher intelligence (be it God, one’s
higher-self, holy guardian angel or spirit guide) tries to pass
contradictory new truths through a flawed belief system, these
truths are conceptually blocked or distorted. The greater the
fundamental errors in one’s belief system, the greater will be
the distortion. All things being equal, this is why some
people can receive inspiration (be it scientific or
spiritual) and others cannot or receive only poorly.
This concept that you create your own spiritual reality is
nothing new. Versions of this can be found in a great many books of
spiritual philosophy. But actually realizing how this works
and applying it to one’s own foundation belief system in
pursuit of higher truth and knowledge is an entirely
different matter.
I was given detailed instructions on how to accomplish this. The
next day I sat down and made a list of all the things I believed
in concerning my spiritual reality. I then analyzed and
erased all the things I had not actually experienced or
proven for myself. After many days of pondering and
revising, I ended up with a very small list indeed. It went
something like this:
- OBE is real: I’ve had Astral projections all my life.
- Clairvoyance is real: I’ve seen auras and visions all my life.
- Healing is real: I’ve both given and received it, seen and felt its power.
- Kundalini is real: I raised mine to its highest level in 1987, and many times since.
- We survive death: I’ve seen people after their deaths and have visited the spirit worlds.
- A higher force is concerned with human existence and its
spiritual evolution: I’ve experienced this many times — the
voice I heard above is just one example.
- Angels, masters, deities and good spirits are real: I’ve interacted with these many times.
- Bad spirits are real: I’ve experienced poltergeists and
psychic attacks, been possessed and self-exorcised, and helped
many people and children with similar problems.
Gone were personal spirit guides (while I had learned to believe I
had one, I had never actually met or openly communicated with
him). Gone was the involvement of spirits in just about
everything spiritual and psychic (I had no hard experience
to support this, only vague assumptions). And gone was the
entire organized spirit structure above us that I had been
taught to believe in (I had no real proof this was
accurate). I also had a quandary. Apart from angels and
other such exalted beings (which have such power and
presence they are impossible to mistake for who they truly are) I
had no reliable way of telling good spirits from bad spirits.
Therefore, logically, I had to reject all lesser spirits until I
discovered a reliable method of discernment.
The above might sound extreme, but it is eminently logical. Given
the source, I took the advice I had been given to heart. I would
learn to live this new way of truth and to apply it to my
life.
My final list was real and true, as I had personally experienced
everything on it. As instructed, I would build on what was real
and discard everything else. I was told to shelve items of
‘possible’ truth aside, until proven or disproven. However,
this is easier said than done and I went into what I can
only describe as spiritual shock. I felt empty, alone and
depressed. I had to keep stopping myself from talking to my
spirit guide during prayers. If I was to do this at all, as
instructed, I had to go all the way.
In time, this new foundation belief system settled more
comfortably within me. I got over my emptiness and began filling my
aching void with practical truth and knowledge. From this point
onwards, slowly and surely, everything started to come
together in my life. As instructed, I began writing a
journal of my thoughts and ideas. I used the writing process
to nurture my inner genius, to free up the flow of
inspiration between my physical-self and my higher-self.
This flow, I had been told, was blocked not only by my
previously flawed conceptual filters, but by the vast differences in
consciousness: between the level of consciousness of my normal
awake mind (my base level of consciousness) and the more
rarified and abstract level where my higher-self resided
within me.
I turned my unanswered questions into journal articles. These
contained everything I experientially knew to be true about each
subject. I found myself putting in many logical subtitles and
question marks to represent gaps in my knowledge. I used the
writing process (revision, sleep, revision, sleep, and so
on) to coax the truth from my dreams, and from the deep
recesses of my higher spiritual-self. As instructed, I began
shutting myself away in a dark, silent room for several
hours at a time, discovering a profound new level of deep
trance thinking. I thought, dreamed, meditated and wrote on
seemingly unfathomable arcane matters.
In time began receiving inspirational ideas. My dreams and
visions swam with sparkling clues; tiny pieces of the jigsaws I was
trying to build. My logical and inspirational processes began
working overtime, far more powerful than ever before. I
found myself waking many times during sleep, compelled to
reach for pen and paper to record new ideas. Mundane
conversations and events triggered intellectual storms
through the mental associations they caused, necessitating
much frantic note-taking as inspirational ideas surfaced
like glistening dolphins leaping from the murky waters of my
subconscious mind.
In time, I accepted this process and began working with it. I
felt like I had been reborn. This is how I developed my Catch
Basket concept. During the day, I set my catch baskets by
pondering unanswered questions. These are baited with rich
crumbs of personal experience, tantalizing ideas and juicy
pieces of logic. In the morning, I check these for fruits
that have been cast into them from above. I record
everything and add each small harvest to my questioning
articles. Pretty soon, these began fleshing themselves out
and filling in the mysterious gaps.
In truth, my work teaches me just as much as it teaches those I
share it with. Over the years since I began this process, my
catch basket repository began groaning with ripe esoteric
fruits. As instructed, I began pouring these into the
articles, tutorials and books I eventually began writing.
Over the years since my arcane riddle began, my inspirational
process grew into a finely-tuned subtle mechanism. Now, if I have a
serious question the answer always comes to me. Sometimes
it surfaces immediately, sometimes days, months or even
years later, but the clues that lead me to the answers
always come. This has given me drive and purpose, plus an
ever-increasing fascination for this many-splendored thing
we call mortal life. Whatever the future holds in store, I
look forward to living it with great interest.
I hope the above explanation of where I am coming from is of some
help to people who might be struggling with their own beliefs.
It is neither my intention nor my joy to cast doubts upon
anyone’s heartfelt theories and beliefs. But if my work
causes you belief system discomfort, then how solid were
your beliefs to begin with? While faith is a priceless
jewel, if one accepts anything blindly one risks polluting
one’s essential foundation belief system with the curse of
mindless dogmatism.
Please keep an open mind to the possibilities I have introduced
here. The popular New Age spiritual model contains a great deal
of beautiful, comforting philosophy. But it can fall down
quite badly in a practical sense, especially when applied to
dark supernatural problems. If one clings to this model,
the development of new concepts and the gathering of higher
spiritual truths becomes virtually impossible. The
parameters of current popular spiritual models simply do not
allow for this. Because of this, many people today bend the
rules and invent elaborate explanations to get around these
problems, while dogmatically holding true to popular beliefs.
But this increased complexity prohibits a more direct approach. It
leads to belief system obfuscation and ineffective methods
being developed.
A Little Sage Advice To Close On:
Question everything, especially the sacred cows of dogma. Always
think for yourself. Experiment and learn from all that life has to
offer you. Listen to and consider the wisdom of others, and
try on their ideas as you might try on a new coat for size.
Never buy a new coat just because it seems to fit; it must
be practical, within your price range, and look good on you
too. And above all, build your own foundation belief system
from the wealth of your own personal life experience